Sweet Sour Cherry Animob

Love,

What is Love?

What I understand about Love is

caring your most important person.

The person that keep on our mind,

tangling on our heart by saying please remember me, please think of me.

I do have have that important person,

that person is my friend.

But,

this friend doesn't think of me as someone who tangling on his heart.

he have no taste of a "Friend"

Friend is a friend for him,

not more nor less.

Everyday I yearn for him,

thinking is he the one that holding the end of my red thread?

Thinking is he okay? did he eat well? what is he thinking about? what is his emotion right now?

By seeing you smile is enough to make me happy,

imagine if I'm able to talk with you, door of happiness is waiting for me.

imagine if I'm able to be with you, field of happiness is where I live.

But this feeling won't reach you,

I will holding it until I found the one that holding my red thread.

I will let the river of fate take me to the end of my destiny.

If I were fated to be with someone other than you,

then I have to forget you and learn to love him.

For those who have me inside your heart and tangling on it,

be serious, protect my virginity, be patient, be strong,

because I may not like you at first, but with your strong will,

I'll melt one day, only for you.

never contact me but keep in touch with my parent.

this is a tradition of our religion.

I don't like to couple, because I'm afraid.

I  don't want to make my family feel ashamed because of me,

because I'm their only hope. Their only reliable heir.

If possible, someone that can make happy like the picture above.

This is not a tips nor confession,

but this is what my heart been holding up till now,

Don't ask who is he, because I want to make it a mystery.

Don't ask me how and why, because I don't know the reason it self.

I love him till I can sacrifice and I listen to every word he suggest.

He is the first who can make me complicated without saying anything.

I just give you a hint, he is just like the man in the picture above.

I didn't say Athrun Zara, because he is not like him but he has some of the characteristic.

It's been so long since we haven't meet each other. We could even talk but we can feel the thing that what we want to say, you knew that I like you and I knew that you hate me. I still remember it, the time when you hate me that much. It so painful but what ever it is, I still like you. Do you remember that? I was a burden to you, but when I look at you one more time at this moment. That felling came again just like before, but. We couldn't meet face to face like before. Right now, I have no one inside my heart. The feeling that I have once with you, is not here at the moment. Only you who can make me feel this way. I hope Allah can let us meet again one day. This is the feeling I have when you are not around, it's like a really big hole inside this small red heart. I look fine outside this world (blog) but deep down inside my heart I was crying out loud on gaining your love. I dreamed, of meeting you. That only bitter memory you gave me, It's a really sweet memory to me now. I don't know. Ever since I know you I have this really deep feeling, even it's already this long but only you can make me this hard on others. I still haven't the person who can make the same feeling like you did to me. No one, even that person is a greater and for more nicer than you. Ya Allah, let me meet you once more to clear this situation. How I admire you, though no one like you. But I don't know why, you are the one that able to make my day so colorful. With writing this blog, I am crying inside. Crying isn't the way to gain your love, but praying to Allah is the only way for me to be able to get close to you.