Sweet Sour Cherry Animob

Salam sayang to my readers…

How are you today?

Nina? Still like usual… feeling pain in the heart.

Doesn't matter if it deep or not, but what's important now is the title for tonight entry.

Tonight entry sounds like a lonely one isn't it? Yes it is. Nina feel lonely right now. Nina feel like, as if people started to hate Nina. From the way they treat Nina today. Also, the way they publish dinner's picture. Nina feel like they don't like Nina from the start. Now, Nina started to hate herself. The one who write this blog, also the way she is writing this blog. It's the real Nina. The real personality Nina have. Nina can be shy and also Nina can be look like Nina does not care for the new person that Nina has meet. It's because Nina does not know what to talk about! Nina prefer not to add the numbers of people know in this college. Since if Nina meet them, Nina must making a fake smile in front of them. Nina's fake smile is not because Nina hate them… it's because Nina become more and more tired lately. Nina don't want to hurt their feeling. All Nina want is to go to the world where Nina can be happy, or the world where Nina can control it by her self. Nina got many male friend is not because Nina is a playgirl. It's because Nina want to be friend with them. Is it wrong? If this is the world where Nina have to accept, then it is better if Nina being all alone from the start. Having no friends to hurt to. Able to stand and do everything by herself, only trusting Nina's parent only. Or if it's better if Nina is in Nina's parent hometown. There, Nina does not need to worry about friend and anything. Since family is like a friend, they are always there for Nina. Nina want to be alone if all of Nina's friend hate Nina. Nina want to be able to stand on her feet by her self. Not to depend on other's except mama, father and Allah s.w.t. Mama was right, don't trust on other too much. Because one day, we'll be hurting our self soon or later for not being able to gain their trust. If the world is hating Nina, then at that time. Nina want to be prepared of it.